ahhhh, it’s so epiccc~! our 3rd movement flag silks are secondhand. the original users? Santa Clara Vanguard~!!!!!!! GAH i love them! To think, someone from SCV actually spun the same silk that I’m spinning now. ^^ squeeee—
(we call them sexy silks because they have fishnet/mesh-type things that go through the whole flagpole. :D)
what the heck do you expect me to do? you ask for help from someone else, who said no, and I come to help you and what do I get for helping you? a freaking “I hate this” and no thank you??? well gee, you’re really welcome, hun. what a way to show that you’re effing grateful for me going out of my own way to help you. what a way to piss me off. you really want me to dislike you even more? do that again. how me some more disrespect than you already have in the past year. I DARE YOU.
I srsly doubt her ability to perform tomorrow. :/ especially since she’s on the 50 for a significant amount of time, making errors on drill and work and choreography and gets in the way of my drill and my flag.
I really need a break. I’m dozing off while doing homework, I haven’t done any of the reading for bio, APUS, or English for the while week, and I don’t think I’ve really done anything very productive lately. D: I need a break to catch up on all this crap.
One exception, of course, is guard. :)) I’ve been doing great lately and guard seems to always be the one thing where I feel like I’m rlly achieving. looking forward to practice everydayyy~. :D
Meh, i’m following someone who’s doing this, soooo i’ll try to keep up. :D
10.25.2011: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Alamo: I’m confused. I really do like you, but I don’t know how you feel. I hear things and see different things and I have no idea what to do. I can’t get myself away from you. Just say something already. Say something to me.
123Look: You are so amazing. You are one of the best people I have ever met in my life and I really hope you remain one of my best friends forever. You understand me completely and I can talk to you about just about anything. I just wish we had more time to spend with each other because the two classes we have with each other are simply not enough, and we don’t spend breaks and lunches with each other anymore. I miss you. ilysm~!
Jars: Ohhh, girlie. :) You are the first friend I ever made in America, literally. We’ve known each other for so long and we know each other so well, yet we hardly know anything about each other! It really doesn’t make sense, but I guess that’s how it is when you live miles away from such a close friend. But I must say that I’m very happy that we can be there for each other as outlets and people to get away from our own schools with. It’s amazing that we still keep in touch with each other, and I hope it doesn’t end.
Dizzy: GOSH I wish you weren’t so frustrating all the time! You’re so insanely unpredictable and irresponsible and outspoken and dumb sometimes and then you could switch to being the greatest friend ever. It’s too muchhh~. D: I wish I could tell you my secrets because we’d have lifelong conversations about them, but I can’t trust you to keep them. I think. Maybe I can. But others are telling me I shouldn’t and I have no idea what to do. But I think you might already know…
CDs: I am so sorry for the way that everyone treats you. I’m sorry I don’t try to stop it. I’m sorry I’m not strong enough to speak up for you. I’m sorry I can’t muster up the courage I need to tell you how I feel. You aren’t wrong to be who you are. They are the bad ones for talking about you behind your back and laughing, for planning to leave you behind, for snickering at your every move. Everything you do only has good intentions and generosity, and I see them doing nothing to give something back. All I see is cruelty. They’re being hypocrites, and I realize it needs to stop. But they’re the bad ones who won’t take it seriously. Ever.
Cloud: You try to make it look like you’re the best person ever. Guess what? You’re really not. I’m sorry, but I am happy that others share my dislike for you. You haven’t been so bad lately, but hell, wait until the springtime, when the workload comes in and all everyone will hear will be incessant complaining about a life that is not nearly as busy as everyone else’s. That crap isn’t going to get you where you want to be. Just stop.
Kazoo: YOU! Gosh, we just have this weird love-hate friend relationship that changes so frequently. I miss you, though! You are the person who has known me the best throughout my life, and I’m so sad it was cut short when we had to move on to our own little activities. :(
Vodka: Lmao, you’re so epic. You are such a great person and friend and a baaad influence on a nerdy like mee~. Thank you for actually caring…I love how you speak the truth and totally support me and my asianness and you neeeeeeed to be in that position next year. NEED!
Maybe: You need to get your head out of your butt for like the first time in the two years that I’ve known you. All you do is complain and act like we’re supposed to feel sorry for you when you get yelled at. You don’t seem to put any effort into what we do and you don’t seem to care about what damage you’re doing. Stop complaining about not being able to do somethig when you can use that time to actually get better. Stop being lazy and stop being dumb because that’s been getting you nowhere.
Everyone: Stop judging. Stop putting so many restrictions on other people with your words. Stop being such conformists with close-minded foci on society’s norms. Stop thinking things are funny when they’re not.