1: What’s bothering you most right now?
the fact that i don’t have the freedom/independence right now to do what i want. it’s not asking for much, really. it just feels like everything i ask for is answered with a no, and i can’t argue back.
13: If you could go back in time, what would you do/fix?
honestly, i would go back in time and join guard earlier. i would push myself harder. i would believe in myself a little more. i could’ve been [a lot] better.
I just need a cuddle and someone to look into my eyes, thumbs at each corner and foreheads close enough to feel without touching. I need a promise that what I’m feeling will all go away and that my life and all I care about are okay. I need a soft hand on the blades of…
3: When was the last time you disappointed yourself?
like… last night.
6: Do you usually show your real emotions to people?
noooooo. i really sometimes just feel like people are too busy to lend an ear for undivided attention. you tell people about something, and they’re listening, but with a lot of attention focused on how they should respond. they listen with the intent of replying, not with the intent of understanding. or in the back of their minds, they’re trying to relate in some way to make it seem like the real emotions aren’t really that bad. or if over digital communication, they might be talking to someone else at the same time. i’m not gonna lie, i’m one of those people too. but yeah, i don’t show my real emotions to people.
18: Are you stressed out right now?
YES. and school is the least of my sources of stress right now.
so every year after the juniors finish reading The Great Gatsby my high school english teacher throws a Gatsby party at his huge house and everyone shows up in period clothing and Charlestons to 20s music and my english teacher just wears a suit and stands off to the side staring wistfully out the window the entire night
If you ever accidentally call 911, DON’T HANG UP. Stay on the line and tell the calltaker that you accidentally dialed. When you hang up, we either have to call you back or send out police which takes up valuable resources and wastes money. A simple “It was an accident” is all we need and everyone goes about their life much better
you know that unexplainable sickish feeling where youre not really sick and you dont really have a headache but you just feel wrong and you cant get comfortable or find something that youre really into but you kinda feel too ill to sleep or eat its like your body saying “i dont know what i want you to do but this isnt it”